I really think that God has been trying to teach me patience. And I only hope that he can be patient to me as I learn. I’ve never really seen myself as stubborn but, I suppose in the proper context (sin), clearly I am. I think I am the most impatient person that I know. It’s important to wait on God. To acknowledge that He is in control, and that His time will most likely not match up with want I want. Simply because He is God and I am not. And I need to accept that with excitement and humility.
If I stand back and look at my day as a whole, it truly blows my mind to think, wow! I did all that? Its ridiculous. I try to do as much as I can everyday only to satisfy my “don’t waste time” urge. And sometimes, more recently, I’ve not been going to sleep. As of right now I’ve been up since Sunday morning, when I got up for church. I guess what I’m trying to get at is, by trying not to waste time, I end up wasting more time. Just before Christ ascended into heaven what did he tell his deciples? . . . it was somthing like “therefore, go and make disciples of all nations” . . . you know the rest. I dont think i heard him mutter anything about a job, or a car, or money. Where do our priorities ly? whats important in our lives? Is it doing the will of the King, or our we toooo far involved in the world. Are we trying to get through life the way that the world does? Arent we to be set apart? What is a visable difference in me and a non-christian? I get early on sundays and go to church. Last I checked there were even plenty of un-saved people doing that?
In the course of a typical day how much do I share the gospel, how much do I talk to people and pray for them? How much time could I not be wasting? I’m not married, so I certainly don’t have a family to tend to. School is pretty much out. I don’t have a job. The only commitment that I have right now is laziness. And that sucks!
Aside from that, I know that christians have jobs, I know that they have families, and I know that they have other responsabilities. But, for people our age who have a good amount of freedom, what are we doing? (not trying to offend anyone here) Just out of curiousity what would happen if we step out on faith and depend soley on him for cash, for food, for every necessity? Hasn’t he promised to take care of us? Not worry about where we’re gonna sleep tonight, not worry about where our next meal will come from. Let God take care of us, like he has promised?
sorry, sometimes I feel like i just ramble incoherently. I start the blog out with a point but then I get off track. So, im not gonna finish my point, im just going to abandon this alltogether, enjoy!
hey! I am so glad you updated! I needed to hear that! Even with a job I struggle to find money for gas, and food, and different things I need. I often wonder myself when and if I will ever come to a point where I will be able to COMPLETELY trust him for my every need! I worry about so many things that I just need to give over to him, and everything will be fine waiting on what he has for my life, and not what I think I need for my life to go the way I want it to.
i love your rambles! whether you realize it or not, you always make good points! and i think this one speaks to all of us who are in college. this time of life is so frustrating, not knowing what our lives are going to turn out to be. most people in their 30′s can say, i’m a mother, a pastor or a construction worker, in alot of ways we are still in the making. but i guess the lesson that God is trying to instill in me right now is not to despise the processes that He is using to make me what He wants me to be. so thanks for another thought provoking post!